Monday, November 9, 2009
Time: 1349
Location: TP AEG Club Room
I am so tired.. With all these. Why must I act normal when I am not. Why is it that at time like these, it is hard to find people to talk to. So tired of many stuff. Wearing me down slowly. And at times like these, one can hardly avoid a mental break down.
What more can I do, without having anyone to talk to. Without a proper idea in mind to cool myself down. It is just so tiring.
Sometimes, one do wonder why one dint give up in the first place. Won't that have been a better option? A better way out? Rather than letting one ownself go through such harsh reality. How do one accept such treatment.
Lethargic I am, I just wanna rest. Away from this dreadful place. All these things, facing it all alone. Is really tiring. Sometimes, I do wish I am dead by now.
Why can't I just leave?
Yi Hao.
Friends, where are you?
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Hmm, why is it that human continues to fight even when they know that there is nothing to gain from it.
Is it the sense of achievement that they get from playing the war of words? Are these people flawed? What is great about this war of words where each other just use words in an attempt to strike one down. And when 2 stubborn people go against each other, it simply goes on and on.
One’s life is short, should we continue spending our time on such war of words knowing that nothing will be gained and only time will be lost? Is is all worth it? And why can’t we just give up but instead opt to struggle even while withdrawing what is on the field. People are weird. I’ve learnt it. This just show me how weird human being can be.
Life is short, anything can happen at any point of time. We don’t know what is gonna happen in the next hour. I’ve learnt it the hard way and I am enjoying every moment that I have now.
Whatever have been done, whatever have been said, just let it die down. It is better for all. From stranger to friend, friend to lover and lover to enemy. We have gone through the entire phase of human relationship. Let’s just end it here once and for all. It is really better for both of us. Whatever have been done, someone must face the consequences though. That is a fact that we must understand.
I hope that everything can come to an end, take it as though we have never known each other before. Let us be stranger from now on. It is better this way. We are better off this way. Memories shall be memories.
Today has come to an end, rather peacefully. I’ve enjoyed my day today. Have you?
with regards,
Yi Hao
When one leave, one should not regret his action.
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Alright, time to pick up the pieces and move on with life,
Not because I admit that i am losing,
but because i am tired to continue this stupid rampage with you,
what have been done is already done,
just don't come haunt me for it,
spend your time looking for the knife.
Do what you deem fit,
i will just sit and wait if you aint willing to let go,
i am willing to fight till i die,
I don't have time to continue arguing with you,
Life is short,
I am enjoying as much as i can.
this blog will not be deleted, it contains too much memories.
Enjoy your time,
Enjoy your day,
I am gonna fall, I am gonna fake it,
Now that will make you think you've won again,
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
You want a piece of me? You'll make it
You want to hit me, then you're satisfied
I'm gonna fall, I'm gonna fake it
Now I will make you think you've won again
I've fallen down, my nose bleeding badly
I'm where you want me
Shut your face, shut your, shut, shut, shut your face up
When doors are locked, I'm gonna get you
You are not safe any place, anywhere
I'm bringing Bundys, have they met you?
I'm telling stories, saying what you're gonna do
I've fallen down, my nose bleeding badly
I'm where you want me
I know the words I know when to say them
You're where I want you
I'm coming to get you
Yeah, I'm coming to get you
I have a surprise for you
Beware, beware
Don't go to bed, don't close your eyes
I've fallen down, my nose bleeding badly
I'm where you want me
I know the words I know when to say them
You're where I want you
Shut your face, shut your, shut, shut, shut your face up
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Saturday, September 12, 2009
Why dint I run when I know it's you,
But instead stay on to look at you,
Why dint I turn away when you look at me,
But chooses to look into your eye,
Why do I have to shiver when I look at you,
Why do I weep when I see your face,
Why do I lost the strength to stand when I look at you,
Le-yi, why is it so?
I opt not to face reality,
Cause reality is too harsh for me,
I opt not to dream on anymore,
For dreaming will bring me deeper,
I opt to leave this place,
I opt to stay far,
I opt to bring memories along,
For I am too weak to carry on,
It starts with 10,
along with 20,
I am back to destroying myself,
For my existence is not important to you.
Le-yi, you have overtaken me and I cant do anything to retaliate,
All I can is the continuation of destroying myself,
Not to seek attention,
But to make my mark once and for all,
I can no longer run,
I can no longer hide,
I can only eliminate myself,
Eliminate my traces,
For no pain is comparable to the mental pain i've put myself through.
I no longer have tears to ask you back,
Nor do I have the ability to ask for your return,
The only strength I have left are better used for other things,
Should it be unpleasant,
I will change what people think,
About one so innocent,
About one so pure,
Yet stained inside,
Let me off,
Let me go,
You have taken me,
I no longer have anything more to give.
It starts with 10,
End with pain,
Continued by tears,
I opt to leave,
You won't come back,
I should go,
Enjoy your time.
My heart simply refuses to beat without you in it,
My heart's simply too weak,
You win this,
You've won all,
I surrender to the dirt beneath,
It starts with 10,
It started today,
I have nothing more to say,
Let me off.
I am tired,
I no longer have strength to put up a fake front,
Why did I let you in so deep,
Le-yi. It hurts. Nothing have changed.
I am running away from reality,
I am no longer gonna dream,
I no longer know who to seek help from.
I must and I shall.
What else do you want from me.
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Sent from my mobile device
cheers,
with regards,
Yi hao
By the way, the IP i was talking about wasnt your's. It is not because i cannot get over the breakup or rather i cannot get over how you simply walk away just like that.
ps: Your IP is 119.56.79.4 not 119.56.103.25 that spam my board. You are simply over thinking of stuff. Or is it something that you have done to raise such guilt in you?
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